《苦奈》

其實我很想知道
是哪裏出錯了

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

我認爲自己一直以來都真誠以待
我對所有人
都那麽地全心全意
爲什麽
我得不到
友情
？


好累
好辛苦
人生真的
太複雜

我不知道未來怎樣
我好怕

有好多讓我恐懼的事情
但沒有一件給我堅定的意志

我到底是哪裏不夠好
到底是哪裏做錯了什麽
I guess
The best of me
is just not good enough

hahahahaha
long time no use English update liao

hmm
suddenly feel like using English lo

I cherish everyone in my life
I really love my friends and family
I give my best to everyone
I help whoever in need
I do whatever I can to show my loves
but as time goes on
my distant to everyone is just
going further and further.

I really think that I'm not in the correct universe sometime

“不是你和我有代溝
是我和全世界有代溝”

is my conclusion
about how
pathetic I am

hahahhahahahahaha

I WANT DIE AHHHHHHHHH

WHAT'S THE POINT OF LIVING !!!!!!!

I'm not afraid of the idea of dying
I'm just afraid of the potential suffering it may bring



...

it's 12:21am now
11/11
just talked with Erna
to be honest
I felt so much better
I really really appreciate that talk

but yes
deep down
I'm still very emo about all the things that's happening

it's not just friendships
relationships
family
works
study
my future.

my life in general.

I really need help.

please help.

:c